HellHound

My two very close friends are dog lovers. I find it magical tha how dogs respond to their call and obediently come and sit next to them, yeah, I have no luck there. Animals detest me. They howl and bark with spit if they see me around. As if I am possessed or something. Or am I? O_O

 They are my friends, there, happily playing with puppies. Aarti and Poulami . I don't prefer playing with them, I always feel these dogs communicate with themselves and plan to attack on me. I once decided to just go and play with them since Poulami insisted on how cute they were and should not miss it. As I was going to them another dog appeared near Aarti and Poulami. I acted to be cool.

Suddenly all dogs started woofing!

  I thought , ok they don't look harmful, they are just playing. I came closer to them.

Suddenly things changed, dogs behavior changed, it became cloudy, my friends' faces started to fade, as if they were never there. I swear to god I saw them running away. So it is clear that I was not hallucinating.

Dogs started to look like this, opposite to how they looked.

They barked so loud, I could swear one of the dog had mom tattooed on it's muscled arm.

One of the dog came close to me, I was scared, screaming and crying. I can bet my life that, the dog looked fierce. As if it was military trained, more like a cop dog. It breathed heavily. And slowly walked toward me
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I shut my eyes and screamed for my friends, next thing I see is

Everything is blur after that.

Inner Noise.

The noisy side of you. Haven't we all have had a noisy side of us. The internal voice that repetitively talks to you. All those times you want it to shut up,but it just wont. The voice inside you keeps on talking and talking, sometimes all you hear is "blah blah blaah bla bleaaack bella is blue blah blah". That feeling is so plagued. The torture by competing thoughts and feelings.

The times when I had my inner noise talking to me, I am definitely going to share it with you all. The first time ever when I felt there was something inside of  me, speaking to me when I was trying to make a conversation or probably giving an important exam. Oh! all of you must have to go through it.

Umm, some years back I was giving my math paper in school, now you all know math is not an easy subject. I started answering questions, after an half an hour a song suddenly plays in my head. A song from " Jhoom Barabar Jhoom" the very title song. Heinous images of Bobby Deol and Preety Zinta dancing started to appear in my head. I just couldn't get it off!! I hate that movie, I hate every actor in it, every song of that movie is trash. I wanted mathematical formulas in my head. 3 hours passed that pathetic song kept playing in my head, oh for that entire day. I couldn't curse my stupid noisy side of me less. That day my dear friends, was the first encounter of my inner noise. As time passed the inner noise became my friend. Inner noise and I frequently talked to each other. If anyone in class or in tuitions did anything stupid,we both immediately talked and I would giggle. Certainly, people must think I am such a fool to laugh alone, at absolutely nothing, but no, inner noise would have just said something utterly funny thing about you, or it would have just pointed out to me your accidental 'i am picking up my pen,and oops my butt peeps out of my pant'.

All of us have gone through periods of great internal turmoil, which is where much of our inner noise comes from. So, just don't curse nd avoid ur inner noise. Be a friend to it and have fun.

Toodles.